butterflies in my stomach.

hmm, 5 days left. counting the day till the result of my last interview. seriously, i'm fucking nervous -..- hikhok. meh tumbuk perot sekali, rasa macam ada berjuta rama-rama dah nihh dalam perot . serabot! i'm worried about my future, seriously.. kalau tak dapat ni, i MUST find another job.a BETTER job. sampai bila nak jadi waitress? bukan pandang lekeh keja waitress, but i need new job, better than that. i wanna have a bright future. for who? for MYSELF! kalau aku tak pikir masa depan aku sendiri, sapa nak pikir? tok ang? haha. shit. people might say that i'm a woman, no need to worried much about this cause 1 day i'll get married and laki aku yang akan tanggung keperluan aku. hell no, its not 80's. we're now in 21st century, kena berfikir lebih maju okay! i need to have my own money , my own property. harghh! too much things in my head, its too late for me to regret my past. 2009-berhenti matrik, memang keputusan paling BODOH penah aku buat. the end of 2010-dapat interview uitm , cos masscom, aku tak pi sebab.. wat terok heartbroken, frust menonggeng sebab putus cinta. memang aku bodoh macam sial kan time tu. tolong terajang aku sorang sekali.-.- then 2011 masuk segi, berenti lagi. yang ni tak kisah, masuk kolej swasta memang aku rasa tak terjamin masa depan. baik aku berenti sebelum terlambat. nanti duit dok keluar macam air, study tak tentu ke mana lagi. n NOW.. berharap pada interview SPA yang kali ke 4 nihh. kawan-kawan , please wish the best for me. tahun depan dah 21, takkan aku nak melingkop lagi :( malu okay at kawan-kawan aku yang lain, semua berjaya. aku dok tenggelam timbul tak tentu arah masa depan lagi. God, please be nice to me this time ♥  .okay, serabot. tidoq. zzZzzz! bye.